While we sit here in the final, hours, days, weeks, months and years of waiting for our blessing to arrive, I would like to share with you a little story I wrote for my class several years ago, while living on the organic fruit and vegetable farm in Chile.
Prayers:
I just got back from a prayer session up at the monastery that brought me thoughts of compassion and healing for those who wage war and for those who are victims of those who wage war. During my meditation several times I thought about the River of Life and tried to stay in the middle of these two powerful polarized energies so I could use my balance to send healing energy to both. We finished our prayer and spent some time healing each other with group Reiki sessions and I left feeling at peace.
My girlfriend M and I returned to the farm and found that the neighbor’s dogs had attacked several of the llamas we had been raising. They killed a beautiful pure white llama and had attacked two others. One who could not stand had dragged itself across the field, its rear end torn to shreds. The third had escaped with several large bites in its rear legs.
I can’t put into words the pain I felt looking at the carnage. We went to work on the one who could not walk, wrapping her in a rug to warm her, while I built a lean-to tent to protect her from the rain. It was impossible to move her so we tried to make her as comfortable as possible. I ran energy into her and felt her weeping soul, scared and confused as to why these animals had waged war on her and her family. I told her I was there for her and would do what I could to help her make it though this, one way or another.
I cry as I write this because my heart breaks for the tragedies in life and I know there are so many tragedies happening all over the world. But tragedies, no matter their size, where they are, or who they affect, I know do not change the essence that is me at my core. I stay true to my point of conception and find strength in my belief that it is better for me to have an effect on the tragedies than for the tragedies to change who I am.
I was deeply affected by the healing meditation I had done at the Buddhist center and I was deeply affected by the anger I felt over this ruthless attack. These two opposites existed in one space and time. As difficult as it was to make sense of them existing side by side, in the same day, I found I could use one against the other to keep me at Zero Point, in that place of Quantum Polarity, where I could see that the essence of my strength was the strength of my essence. They met at conception, where the circumstances outside of me could not change the person I saw and felt to be deep inside.
I am sure I will paddle back and forth in the river over the next few days, but knowing that the center is where I want to be, will keep me closer to it and there I will find the peace that lives in my soul.
(Dear family, I think we all need to stay as centered as possible right now in between the two big energies that seem to be waging war with each other over when we are going, it is in God's hands and she will not let us down.)
I went to bed, shivering and full of sadness, feeling my grief as it filled me, while I also let the healing energy from the Buddha’s birthday celebration, the One World Healing and the Celestine Prayer Groups prayer I had been through in the last few days, fill me with hope. I was now floating in the calm, clear, silent, deep waters of the center of the River of Life. There I found peace, I cried, and slept like a baby.
I woke rested and more determined than ever to continue my exploration of this thing called Quantum Polarity. This was new territory I was traveling and it stretched me and forced me to go deeper. It has lifted my soul and carried my spirit. It has also helped me understand why I have been given my new Buddhist name and I now wear it with pride, for I am Nuela Chogyal, ¨King of the Road of the Medicine Buddha¨ and on that road I H.E.A.L. Heal Earth And Life. I am so happy to be traveling that road with all of you and hope you can feel the healing energy I am sending you daily.
Now I must go attend a funeral of a good animal friend and use my healing gift from God to help another find her way to the center of the river and the home of her essence because that is what we do.
I Hope that if you cry for me and this situation, you will also smile for me and feel the peace and balance that is there at Zero Point, Quantum Polarity, that point that is in the center of all of us, where God's love fills us with hope.
God Bless You All!
Lesson 4 A Gift From God
M and I returned to the farm to help bury our friend and to I hoped continue treatment of the other llama that was injured. As we walked through the field M told me of a dream she had that night, about the injured llama. In it he turned into a very beautiful young man. He was sitting in a meditation pose as if in a trance and though his body carried all the injuries of the llama, he seemed to not be suffering. She said he then became completely illuminated, opened his eyes and smiled at her. She said she felt such peace in his smile. I smiled thinking how all along I had thought the llama was a beautiful woman.
We were both expecting to find our friend passed on, for yesterday the vet told us nothing could be done to save him and s/he would pass very soon. When they turned him over the extent of his injuries were much worse than we had thought, a large part of his body was missing, torn away by the dogs in the attack. Being devotees of Buddhism we could not put him down, so we decided to let him pass in the night naturally while resting under the tent I had built for him.
As we approached we saw that he was holding his head high and seemed to be staring into space as if in a trance. He laid his head on the ground as we approached. M could not believe he was still alive. I felt it was because he was only three years old and still holding strongly to life. We ran some Reiki energy through him to help ease his suffering. He seemed so calm, as if he were accepting his condition and not struggling against it. I knew if we were going to get the other llama buried today we had better get started so we left him resting and went to find his brother, the other llama that had died.
We spent several hours, just the two of us, digging the grave as a cold rain fell. The task did not seem difficult and time passed rapidly. We finished by putting a headstone on his grave, some flowers, and both M and I and decided to leave him a little gift. She planted a mushroom on his grave and I put a big footprint on top and filled it with green plants.
We returned to our gallant friend who was now clearly suffering and breathing heavy. We sat on each side of him and laid our hands on his head. We started praying the mantra "Om Mani Padme Hum" over and over we chanted. This is said to help one in passing over. I then began running Chi energy into him and asked him why he would not let go. He responded very clearly, "I want to see my mother before I go." I knew his mother was in another pasture and it would take hours to round her up and bring her here and I did not believe we had that kind of time. So I prayed to my old traveling Shaman friend and spirit guide and asked him what I should do. He said to me, "You Are His Mother." I took a deep breath, pulling all the colors of my Chakra into it and pushed this energy out though my hands as I said, “Son I am here, I have come to visit you before you go and to tell you that I love you very, very much. As I said this the llama let out a big sigh and lifted his head a bit. I then reached deep and prayed to God, "God, I have not asked you for much in my lifetime, but I pray to you now, please come and take my son home with you.” As I finished this prayer the llama took one last big breath, opened his eyes and smiled as he passed over. Both M and I had the feeling that his spirit was being lifted upward by Angels and at that moment a large flock of golden birds passed just overhead sounding as if they were singing as they headed for the river.
I knew in those last moments when the llama was in the most extreme discomfort possible, he was also feeling his ultimate joy and bliss and I knew he had found his way to the center of the River of Life and to the inner peace that was there for him. I watched him as he drifted by and I saw him as he found the rainbow bridge to the other side. As God and all his Angels walked with him over that bridge to the garden of Eve, I thought, we are all truly Children Of His Rainbow World. I began sobbing, deeply affected by his passing, while overwhelmed with the joy of being a child of such a compassionate God. I too had found the center of the River of Life.
Now class, here is the real Lesson I wish to pass on to you. Listen closely and look inside yourself and there you will find the gift I wish to give you on this day of celebration. For today was a day of death and passing and it is also a day of birth and new beginnings because today is my actual birthday. Today I have been given the greatest gift possible from my maker, a real lesson in living and dying and living life at Zero Point.
Keep the faith everybody. Right now it’s all we got.
My love to you all and may your compassion and love for your fellow wo-man-kind fill the world soon.
Cowboy
Let's go down to the river and have a little talk with God.
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Thanks for the edit on this one Bobbi love ya.