Hello wonderful family, it feels so good to connect with y'all again. It's been a while now, too long if you ask me but I've recently been through an onslaught of my own trials, lessons, learning opportunities and thus my focus has been largely diverted. All the same I never stopped caring about each and every one of you and that is why I speak to you now, to hopefully offer some insight and support to ease your passage through these challenging times. Ya know I never thought of my self as the male cheerleader type but for y'all I'd gladly bust out a megaphone hell even rock some tight pants and cheer go team go!
So the past month or so has been very interesting for me. Like I said, many great opportunities for personal growth. And by that I'm talking about mountainous highs followed by abyssal lows getting tossed about every which way as the tidal wave of life sweeps me ever onward. In a previous post I spoke of a roller coaster metaphor, yeah a roller coaster seems like a rockin in a baby cradle by comparison. I thought I'd found the love of my life, that everything was coming together and all my dreams manifesting before my eyes in real time only to have it all ripped away just as quickly. Hmm now how does that sound familiar??? Well through it all my eyes were opened to a piece of me I'd kept locked away, unwilling to look at and tough as it was when the dust settled I was seeing everything more clearly than ever before.
When I look back at who I was, even as recently as this past fall, I am amazed at the transformation like I am a new person, reborn better than before. Okay you're growing good for you dude but I thought this was a post about why those damn 800 numbers remain ever elusive wassup with that?! Okay I'm getting there had to cover some back story to bring it all together! So going back to last fall I was so SOOO sure this thing was gunna go like I could see it i could feel it i just knew it, it was here! I know I'm not the only one either I know there a lot of y'all out there who've felt the same thing not once not twice not three not four not five times... okay now I feel like Lebron talking about all those rings he was gunna get well he eventually got some of those rings and we'll get our RV too but I digress.
Point is I could truly feel it right about to go then no. Let down let down let down waiting waiting waiting rally. Okay a few months pass, its Thanksgiving, Christmas, its here for sure I KNOW it. Then... nothing womp womp but hmm something strange is happening. Here I am again same thing happening but that feeling of being dumped right before the prom isn't kicking me in the nuts the way it used to what gives? Then it hit me that message of surrender (thanks Yosef I love ya bro no matter what anyone says) really had sunk in. But even more I'm in the flow seeing things not from my ego but more the perspective of my higher self how there's truly a point of to all of it and the highest good of all really is playing out through all the "set backs".
So that about brings us back to now, the end of another cycle of waiting that inauguration flash bang that was supposed to propel us into our new lives of philanthropic adventures. And that's when it really hit me... maybe just maybe it really could have gone at any one of those near climax that weren't points these past several months (even years maybe) but ever time I, subconsciously, chose to hop on a new timeline where the waiting was longer, the frustration greater but ultimately forced me to grow beyond what I believed to be necessary and dare I even say possible. Oh how some cycles have been rough but each time I look back I think wow I thought I'd reached my limit but ultimately found more strength, more light within me.
Now if this is true for me, on a micro level, then what if the same holds true on the macro scale. What if we as a collective keep reaching that point of no return before deciding hey we can go a little longer, we can stretch a little further, we can squeeze a little more expansion out of these unique times we're living in! After all as soon as the RV pops, the Republic enters the public view in full force, disclosure happens, the world as we know it will never be the same again (can I get a big hallelujah for that). But that also means that no more will our extreme, unflinching faith be needed, our discernment sharpened, our depth of love tested. An opportunity like these may not come around for another million years, if ever! As darkness succumbs to light across the galaxy and beyond, such extreme conditions as these will be no more. Is it really too much of a stretch to think that we intrepid beings of light wouldn't want to get the very most out of these final days in a fading paradigm?
I know I wouldn't go back and force it all sooner even if I could. This time has been such a terrific teacher for me and it has been a true joy watching you my family evolve along side me. Victor, seeing the way your posts have evolved has been beautiful to behold. OWK, troll slayer extraordinaire, you dear brother are an inspiration to us all! Special shout out to Super Sarah, you are a beacon of light for us all, thank you for your role in my great journey. FYI folks if you haven't been reading what that wonderful child of light has to say GET ON IT! I could name you all for I love you all, even those dissenters who seem to offer nothing but vitriol and malicious assault push us ever further to redouble our efforts in love. I thank you for it but seriously spreading love is oh so much more rewarding and enjoyable than the converse so please considering coming home to us, we await you lovingly with open arms always.
So now here I am feeling like a boy finally reaching maturity, oh so tired of holding my dong and praying for the chance to be able to give it to someone. (to our more sensible family members who may have been offended by this lewd reference I do apologize but a more apt metaphor there is not). I am on the edge of creation now. Jobless, car packed up with all my earthly possessions, ready to take off and begin the next phase of my journey. I know not how it'll all go down but I am good and certain I shall no longer be trapped in the soul-crushing Washington DC area. I choose freedom and boy do I feel free, free as can be! Truly it would be nice to have a fortune to carry me forth but wheres the fun in that? I'm ready for a last leap of faith because I KNOW with all I AM that it truly is working out for the highest good for myself and all. I love you all with all that I AM. GERONIMO!!!!
-C the Light
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