Hold this Space Please? by Pine Cone

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I not only blame myself for being raped, and killed by my family of origin, this self-hate has increased as long as the elite get away with raping, and killing us all. I notice as I hear about this week’s pedophile arrests at the top, that many situations in my private life I have been settling for, as if I deserve whatever those around me do to handle/hobble rancid/rot my Conscience some more, prompt me to, finally take care of new boundaries set.

Can it be true that the evil at the top of our malevolent infrastructure filters down to the bottom of the cannibal elite’s kill barrel? Can it be as true, that the evil at the bottom supports whatever evil Centralization leaders do, similarly, to perform in evil mirror congruence, so we can tell the heath of any collective by how they treat the weak among them?

It’s one thing for the women in my family to get away with rape, and murder, but watching so many vote for feminine-clone Hitlery iconic puts what my Matriarchs did to my brother and I in a whole other unimaginable evil category, way above what, even the Malignant Narcissistic women in my feminist family, still demand to get away with. I am hurting like crazy to set boundaries with the younger generations, yet as I forgive them, I can see how it’s not their fault the elite remain what we, all have settled for, for seeming forever, as if, just because we have always done everything this way, it makes it OK to continue this Collective evil legacy Consciousness.

I waited centuries to be able to express how I, really feel on Intel Dinar, and with these new elite arrests, this new taste for freedom from my own hidden feelings of shame is putting a Sun in my Dark inner skies, where there was no moon to reflect anything but more of our Zombie-empty undead-shame. What I just exclaimed helps me realize, even more how anything, very personal is the closest we ever get to a Universal commonality, so God Bless us all for, all the evil suffering from top to bottom, and back and forth in Karmic-gender overload Atonement, drowning in our own ‘top to bottom/ bottom to top’ Mother Earth evil-septic depressive-crap.

I don’t know which gender is worse, the ones who put it to the other, and scream victim, or the ones who never seem to be able to say NO to slave-catcher harm, but the real evil ones are the ones at the top who live above the Law, and get away with harming both gender, as if neither gender realizes there are no winners here, just victim/victimizer volunteer mirrors of evil gender; played; match; set! It was, really hard to get, so abused, but watching the young ones in my family suffer, as if what the elite do to us, trickles down as fast as anyone gets older, while we elders purposely don’t burden our young out of supposed kindness, so they won’t go out and kill themselves in desperation, because getting old is, definitely ‘not’ for wimps.

Good Listeners learn, that when we come into this world, abused, we will go out as elder-abused similarly, and as a Love Listener, myself it seems we are, all feral children, and are, so abused and neglected that nobody from top to bottom/bottom to top are safe anywhere on Earth, and we can tell by who our Lost-soul Love-lorn ‘weak-leaders’ are too. I can ask for help to become grateful, and maybe soon I ‘will’ be grateful, but right now I need to focus on my new discernment about how our deadly ‘competition’ sets up, all our self-abusive minds with ‘rape, and murder’, as just good leader-Kuru laughing-disease Mother Earth ridicule-peasant business.

ONENESS Pine Cone
Young and Old~Alike