Ronald Reagan was president the last time I was in a doctor's office. "You might have a year, maybe two" was what I believe the doctor said. I looked at him smiled and said "sorry I'm not buying that or any of the other bad medicine you want to sell me." I was 25 that was 36 years ago. What a life I would have missed, if I had listened to him.
I have decided, I am going to stop listening to everyone here on D.C. for just a bit, please don't take it personal. Thinking I will just open my heart for awhile and let the lord above talk to me. She's the reason I am in the thing anyway, so might as well let her tell me whats going on, because I am always buying the good medicine she's selling.
I was watching a video I did to start my 2011 class on finding yourself in Love when 2012 comes in. I recorded it almost 6 years ago on Valentine's day, There was so much hype at the time that the Mayan calendar was going to end and a whole new and wonder-filled world was going to just show up and we would all, as hels says, find ourselves in strawberry fields forever. Well, many will say nothing happened, but I am here to tell you, that something happened to me. A door cracked open just enough for me to look through. My dad use to say "whenever the door opens in your life step through it, because you will never know what's on the other side until you do." The door I stepped through in 2012 lead me here today because without it, I do believe I could have given up on humanity.
Theses not a single person reading this who has not lost it at some time in thier lives and given up on it all. I had a dear friend PJ he was 100% pure hippie, as was his wife, Wind. They had been childhood sweethearts and married like 10,000 years ago, so when Wind dropped dead, I mean literally dropped dead right in front of PJ's eyes, he lost it. When the door opened for me to help see if I could help him out, I said why not, let's go. When I got there he was sitting on the front porch, glass of whiskey in his hand, crying. "I just got a notice today they sold this house we're renting, I have to be out of here in thirty days, how am I going to do that without Wind, I miss her so much?"
For the first couple days I let PJ lose it as much as he needed to and then I knew, if we were going to get 50 years worth of things cleared out and packed up, so he could move back to be with his brothers and sisters in 30 days, I needed him to come back down from losing it for just a bit. I remembered something I would use when I worked with people with pain issues. I called them pain bodies and said they came when ever there was low energy in an area of the body and if you paid attention to them, they would get uncomfortable and go away. Yes I know sounds crazy pay attention to the pain. So everytime we would sit down and PJ would start his woo is me, my life is over, I can't take it anymore, speech I would click a stopwatch, I found while packing and lay it on the table in front of him. The first time I did it he really lost it "WTF is that for!!!!" I said "we're going to keep track of how long you want this bad feeling (pain) to hang around." Then I started telling him, how everything was going to be all right, I asked him to look around at the large group of turkeys feeding in his front yard, to see the two deer at the water pail, he put out for them, to look out over the horizon, how beautiful the view was, to feel the sun on his face, how good it felt, 15 minutes later he said "you can shut that damn watch off let's get back to work." The next day 10 minutes and every day it dropped. When I said my goodbyes to PJ, I handed him the stopwatch through the window of the U-haul truck, loaded with everything he had left. "I love ya man, don't let your possibility for a great life tick away."
As theses last few moment of waiting for our blessing pass, I hope you can, see the turkeys doing the abun-dance, the deer drinking life's tea, the sun rising on your brilliant future and I hope you will know, deep in your heart, everythings going to work out just perfect.
Love to you all and a special love to those in pain, here's a stopwatch for ya, hope it helps.
Cowboy