We relied on my experiences in the Ashram where ten thousand devotees chanted Om Namah Shivaya, the Guru Gita, and Jyota Se Jyota, so after this morning’s Krishna Waltz video, and dancing with Joy all around the house here, this Quickening memory of ten thousand devotees dancing together at the Ashram awakened my Love and Joy up inside my, every lyric in this morning’s shared “Benevolent Interconnecting Telempathy".
https://youtu.be/R4B8JewPRew
I called the pet shop just before our Blizzard, and of all the dear ones there, who should answer but Sitarah, who’s name is the Sita instrument I had just danced in Joy to, all around the house. Then I discovered "Sovereigns", and "Ascension: Activating Yourself and Overriding the Matrix" as if these others were dancing together with all ten thousand of us in an RV ONENESS Quickening. Before my own debriefing from ritual mind-control I never sung, never danced, and never could be around others at all, so the bigger Quickening Miracle is that my soul was never lost in the Rape-annihilation frozen-fear state I, myself barely had survived in before.
https://youtu.be/Pnp_p2cx-hE
“To the Music of So Ham Awake Us”
Three quarters of the way through chanting “Jyota Se Jotya” before, these “To the Music of So Ham Awake Us” lyrics caught my attention after a while. Actually it was a good long while that I chanted Jyota Se Jyota 45 minutes every morning before my 45 minute meditations.
So at the first year, I was beginning to accept that everyone I notice is really a picture of me, you see? This moment, and many like this after this insight, I developed a deeper gratitude for God’s helpers to show me me, and new faith, that God, really does Love me all the time as ONENESS Spirit Conscience sends me, all the players of my forgotten Karmic inside old home movies. By the second year, I dared to realize that I am gender-free Spirit, not just you, and me as body-mirrors, but truly you, and me as Holy Spirit. Six months later I sobbed in Joy, as I realized that I ‘am’ the music, as I felt my Sovereign home in the vibration inside my chanting body.
So, 1,2,3; I am you(1), I am Spirit(2), and I am the music(3). Twelve years later I, seriously stumbled onto this forgiveness work, and I have to admit , it makes me laugh now. I can let go of all these lessons as they become picnic spots in my memory, and just keep forgiving, and forgiving, and forgiving to become Loving, and Forgiving, like all the Good music lyrics promise.
I ‘am’ the music, and I have been wondering what that poetic rhythm is in my chest, that pours out all this prose, so poetry appears, even in my most serious writing. Someone told me a few years ago now that I have received the “Loving touch of the Divine”, and someone else told me that inside poetic rhythm can be my New D N A (Divine Natural Awareness). Anyway, I am tickly giggly bubbly excited to just keep chirping like a “Blue Bird of Happiness”, and deeply grateful for all these Quickening miracle blessings.
“So Ham; Ham Sa”
These words, by themselves, have power. They are Sanskrit words that evolve living meaning, and to start with, mean simply, the out breath and the in breath. The Universe, it is said, continually makes this sound, so it really helps to let these words resound in your mind as you breathe out and in, and harmonize with the Universe. One meaning I derived from chanting around these words is that the outside and the inside are always mirroring for me. Perhaps ultimately, they can mean Thou Art That That Thou Art, and to see God in each other. (When I see Love in someone else, I am accepting Love in myself).
When we breath, very slowly and hesitate between the in breath and the out breath(Ham Sa) or hesitate between the out breath and the in breath(So Ham), we begin to spend more and more time at the moment of “Twilight” magic, as we enter the Pineal Portal to all other dimensions. Practicing letting go and doing advanced forgiveness prayers helps get rid of the fear-wriggles so we can sit in stillness, until the cows come home. Since we are continually co-creating whatever contaminations of ego remain hidden within us, until we merely begin honestly surrendering to our unclear motives, we, not only get what we need, but we, also need whatever we get. “Judge not lest you be judged” speaks to the same powerful process of creativity. I use a tool, that came to me inside the University of Space during meditation; I named “So Ham”. There are 3 steps and then a possible realization inquiry.
STEP # 1: Speak or write with emotion something about another person that really pisses you off. The more you get into it the better. What really gripes you about them? What grabs you and makes you tighten up in the chest? They will never hear you. It is harmless to express. And it will not damage the relationship; it may help heal it. At the very least it will heal you and will increase your faith and give you Peace. After you have ranted for a time, focus on the essence of the meaning of your thoughts and reduce it down to a simple phrase. Edit it until it feels right and then repeat it a couple times.
STEP# 2: Become contemplative and answer this question. What does this other person need? What do they need to do to correct their problem? There is a bit of calculus between step 1 and step 2, so do not get lost comparing yourself to the things you said in step 1. We always see what someone else needs and the answer to question 2 is the key here, not the projections of step 1. Once you have the essence statement of what the other person needs, repeat it like a new mantra quietly to yourself.
STEP # 3: Say the essence statement from step 2 (they need..., they need to…), only try owning it in the 1st person singular (I need..., I need to...); close your eyes and breathe a couple So Ham breaths, and inquire humbly and honestly if this is a possible soul statement in any aspect of your, own life. I like to think that there is freedom in humility, and that as I practice and practice this process, I may get humble enough to see, even God in ME as ME. You know, not God is with me, but I am One with God. Under all behaviors, at the soul level, we are not as different as we might think. Do not be serious and have fun, and when you get to trying on yourself, what you know the other person needs, pretend you are shopping and merely trying on a new jacket, and it is your choice, not to have to buy it. Stay empowered; this is a tool, and you have the last word.
All Spiritual traditions advise that when we get inspiration to walk across the room to tell another just what we think they may need, to stop; turn right around; and go back and sit down to contemplate how exactly what you were going to say to another fits your new invented needs to a human-cross “T”. When we pray for another to have a good, happy, and prosperous life, we let go; when we, also ask Holy Spirit to forgive another, we are letting go of Duality; and when our behavior changes to not go around projecting our crap out onto others, we embrace a new mind of Delight and join our mirrors in ONENESS, more as our loving Saviors. Detaching increases our enlightening compassion, letting go increases our awareness of a benevolent Universe; Forgiveness increases our magnanimity, and really is the Sovereign Spirit ONENESS idea, less personified within gender-free Spirit.
My Eyes Paint a Picture of Me
The Experience
I saw a vision in meditation. I saw a man sitting quietly. This figure was contemplative and looking toward me and off to one side. As his head turned about 30 degrees, color and paint shot out of his eyes onto a blank environment in the new direction of his contemplation. These colors magically formed objects and a scene that appeared in front of him. It was his World on the outside generated by a part of him inside. Simultaneously, a cascade of stardust sprinkled around and in me the “meditator". I felt the joy and harmony that angels must feel. I cried for a couple of hours and for days I felt exalted, bathing in the stardust of the truth I was granted.
The Poem
My eyes paint my world in the colors of my heart
My dreams and my visions have become a work of art
All that is inside me turns to everything I see
I am you, you are me
Let me see
My fears and my judgments become children spouse and friend
All I think is real is merely what's inside of me
Everything's a lesson, freedom in humility
I am you, you are me
Let me see
Life's a house of mirrors the creator paints through me
When I accept all others I accept that part in me
The beauty of my spirit is who I want to be
I am you, you are me
Let me see
I am you, you are me
Let me see
Holy Spirit’s funny idea of a Pine Cone
