I woke up in the middle of the night with a very clear picture of what my post would be today. I have a strong feeling we are at the end of this journey and about to start the next chapter. This is going to be a long post because I have a lot I want to tell you, as we prepare to move on.
I opened my email this morning to write this post and there was a message from Wealth Asto-Numerologist, Tania Gabrielle entitled. "Choose Love not Suffering." It said "January is an 11 Universal month of being fully aware in this present moment – and sharing love. During this shift into a brand new 9-year Universal Cycle in 2017 many are feeling the pain of coming through the birth canal and witnessing the birth of their brand new life............ With Love everything is possible – you are not separated from love – ever.......... Be the divine channel for love - embrace those who are in pain with light and you recharge their vibrational field while not diluting your own. Share your heart freely and take great joy in the miracles as they unfold"
So here I go, sharing my heart as freely as I know how.
I remember the day I got the call as if it were yesterday, I was sitting in my office, looking up flights to make the trip back to Montana for my dad's 80th birthday party. The phone rang, "I am sorry to have to tell you this at work but your father has passed away." It hit me like a punch in the stomach. I sat down and then I heard it like he was standing right next to me, "What are you sitting there for, toughen up, your mom is going to need you, get moving, you a got a job to do." My dad talked to me all the way out to my car and he did what he always does when I need him, he took charge. "Don't fly, drive, your gonna need your car there with you. Make sure you call all your brothers and sisters there gonna need you too, on and on he went.."
Over the last few days my 7 brothers and sisters and I had been having a heated discussion about where my dad's 80th was going to be and who was going to be able to make it. So my dad did what he always does when his kids start fighting, he took control. We all sat there with our birthday hats on, lined up in that church pew, sitting right next to my mom. who had told each and everyone of us as we arrived in Montana that dad would be buried on his 80th birthday and we were gonna do what he always did, celebrate life, his life. "We gonna have a birthday party not a funeral."
Over the next few years I always felt my dad with me and then as I started to explore the possibilities that exist in the world of reincarnation, with my past life work, I knew one thing for sure, he would be back. I wrote the following story several years later.
In the Eyes of a Newborn Child
I have been a Reiki master for several years and have expanded my healing gift into Color, Energy and Aura healing. I feel truly blessed to have met many wonderful people who also follow this path. I am a North American living full time in southern Chile.
I love the closeness to the holy spirit I feel in my healings and meditations and look forward to the calmness that comes from that contact. As I believe most Reiki masters do I start my daily healings and meditation with sending cleansing energy to the one true Mother of us all, Mother Earth. Then I open up my energy to whoever is in need of it. One day a small child’s spirit slipped in and ask for me to give her some energy, this spirit felt so familiar and I knew it was from a very close soul.
Later that day I just knew I must call my daughter and so I did. She was so excited I had called and said her and her boyfriend had just come from the doctor and they were going to have a child. I knew right then who my visitor was and I smiled. Every day for the next seven months little T showed up first in line for my daily healing. She was so full of good thoughts and positive energy it was always such a pleasure to have her visit. I knew I must return to the U.S. to be present for the birth of my first grandchild.
I have to tell you a little side story, my father was my best friend and though he had seven other children I always felt like I was his favorite, I found out at his funeral that I was not alone, all of my brothers and sisters felt like he had loved them best and spent most of his life pleasing and loving them more than the other seven siblings, that should give you a glimpse of what a great soul this man was. He spread such happiness and kindness wherever he went. In my daily visits with the little spirit of T I felt his presence.
As my plane landed in Southern California I sensed something was very wrong. The look on my daughter's face only made me feel the situation was even graver than I had felt. “What’s wrong?” I said as I hugged her and she started to cry, “we had a very serious head on accident two days ago and it totaled our new car. Thank god we were not hurt badly but they were very worried about the baby. She is due in two weeks. They had to give her shock treatment to make sure she was ok. She was moving and they think she will be alright but I am so worried about her.” I could only hold her and pray that all was going to be ok. “Let's go home.” I said.
Once back at their home I ask my daughter B if I could give her and the baby a Reiki treatment, she was comforted by that and it was clear wanted some help in knowing what was going on with the baby. I started my healing with B and could feel the trauma in her arms and upper body from the jolt she had taken from putting her arms out in the accident. I then moved to T and my hands instantly froze and I began to shake uncontrollably. I have never felt that kind of deep, deep cold before. I realized it was T that was shaking and I focused all my energy to warming my hands, then she spoke very clearly to me, “Is my mommy OK? Is my daddy OK? Are they hurt? I am Ok, I am really scared. Help me please.” I told my daughter what the child had said and asked her to please tell her daughter she is fine and her father is fine and to spend as much time as she could over the next days reassuring T that they are OK and only worried about her.
The next day I did another treatment and the energy was so much calmer and warmer I could tell they were going to be fine.
I then asked the baby’s father if he would like a treatment, he had been watching me and I could tell was a little apprehensive about it all. He said he would like one because his neck had been severely hurt and would welcome anything that might help alleviate the pain. B sat in the chair next to the couch I was treating him on. I could feel he was in a lot of pain and as I started my treatment I heard T say to me very clearly. “Let me help.” I thought wow that would really be one young Reiki master. I reached out my hand to my daughters belly and received and instant jolt of intense energy. I pointed my other hand at her father who was lying there with his eyes closed. He immediately said “wow I can really feel the heat on my neck and it feel so good, thank you.” I said “don’t thank me thank your daughter” he opened his eyes to see my hand on B’s belly and he smiled. The warmth we all felt was so calming, we sat for a long time and let T heal, her father, her mother and most of all herself.
We entered the hospital about 10pm several days later, when it became clear that it was going to be a while before they would deliver I sent everyone home with the promise I would call them if anything started to happen. I assumed a meditation pose in the hall outside their room and started my usual routine. When I came to the open healing T slipped in, as usual she was first and ready for some good energy, however she brought with her the labor contractions she must have been feeling. They were not painful however they were strong and I could feel them come and go, I started to use a deep breathing technique I had been working on and soon I had a very comfortable rhythm. I could feel T resting in my hands and I fell into a deep meditation. For almost two hours I sat there calmly taking the contractions as they passed through me. I opened my eyes to the presence of a nurse standing over me. “I’m sorry I bothered you, you were meditating, its funny but your daughter has been in a deep sleep for the last two hours and though the monitors show she has been having very strong contractions with no medication she continues to sleep through them. I have worked here for many years and have never seen that.”
Morning came and everyone returned to the hospital, T's dad said the contractions were getting closer and they expected the baby any time. Several hours passed and then I felt a rush of energy pass through me and I new T was here. Minuets later T’s Father came out to tell us she had been born and B and her were fine. I realized at that moment that it was my father’s birthday and I thought wow is that cool or what; T was born on the same day as my father. I entered the birth room and looking directly at me in the eyes of this new born child where the eyes of my father, I felt his love coming from this special new little soul and I knew she was a very old soul and I felt deeply healed.
Last weekend T came for a visit, she 12 now and she's become such a lady, so when she reached out and punched me in the gut it caught me off guard and I had to look at her. I instantly saw my dad and though she did not say it, I heard it, "toughen up, you got a job to do."
Well last night my dad, Big John, delivered a message to all of us on D.C. Those that have kept the spirits high, those that have thank us for doing so and even those way up there in the cheap seats, who say nothing but just enjoy the view from thier stoop. Heres your message.
"Time to toughen up, because we got a job to do, there's a whole world out there that needs our help. Their scared, afraid, feeling helpless, down and out, need a meal, need a home, need some hope, love and understanding and most of all, they need us." Big John!
I love you all and it has been a pleasure to serve and protect with you.
Our time is now, mount up and lets ride!
Cowboy
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