1 BEYOND ACTIVE LISTENING 1986
2 PINE LOG 2006
3 TOMPINETREE 2007
4 FORGIVENESS 2008
5 AUTHENTIC GUIDANCE 2008
6 ASCENSION 2008
7 FREE FATHER FUN 2009
8 LOVE LYRICS GLISTENING 2009
9 ONENESS 2009
10 NURTURING ONENESS 2009
11 NURTURING 2010
12 FREE FLOWING 2010
13 MIRACLES of PEACE 2011
14 INNER REALM 2011
15 QUICKENING ELATION 2011
16 COALESCING EFFULGENCE 2012
17 SELF MASTERY 2012
18 SOVEREIGNTY WITHIN COLLECTIVE COMPASSION 2012
19 MYSTIC ASCENSION 2012 MONK 2012
20 FULLY CONSCIOUS BEINGS 2012
21 FREE SPIRIT 2012
22 SURRENDERING WONDER 2013
23 GENTLE KIND COMPASSION 2013
24 CONSCIENCE July 2013
25 HOLY SPIRIT SEPT 2013
26 FREEING CELLULAR NEUTRINOS Sept 2013
27 HEAVENLY FAVOR Dec 2013
28 ONE AKASHIC KARMA March 2014
29 SPIRIT FAVOR May 2014
30 IMMORTAL LOVE REALITY July 2014
31 UNIFYING SOVEREIGN MERCY Oct 2014
32 HAPPY HEAVENLY HARMONY Jan 2015
33 EFFULGENCE June 2015
34 RESPONSIVE HUMILITY Aug 2015
35 WELCOME IMMORTAL LOVE Oct 2015
36 *KARMIC DELIGHT* Dec 2015
37 VISIONS Feb 2016
38 RELATIVE FREE June 2016
39 KIND Aug 2016
40 BOOM BOOM BANG-LESS Oct 2016
41 AMAZING GRACE Dec 2016
Forty One Book Synopses and Dates 012917
Here are all my books listed by dates started and brief descriptions of intention beginning with a Master’s Thesis in 1986. Most of my automatic writing really took off in 2007 and continues after meditation, so is guided and promised to never stop continuing. Guided writing is different and has a rhythm that is a song of Prayer within, and is actually Holy Spirit coalescing with my own precise perceptions and needs for Love and nurturing appropriate for me and my path, and not meant at all for helping anyone else, except if they are connected to Holy Spirit themselves. Herein is the key in the writing that, only unlocks for others that ask for help from Holy Spirit to understand.
The code isn’t just for my safety, but is mostly meant to be so kind to others that any, without enough Spiritual commitment won’t even see, or hear as their own anger, and fear protects them from experiencing deeper stress that only their ego knows that they are not yet ready. Cool, huh? Most of my writings are already blogs on other sites, but many are left out so as not to overwhelm any that would not even want to try and understand, because all my writing includes very personal work to let go of very difficult awarenesses. Most would be surprised that as difficult as some of my writing already seems they only express about 40% of the intense experiences I cope with outside and inside. So this may mean that I am only being 60% kind, right?
1 ACTIVE LISTENING AND BEYOND March 1986
After 20 years of teaching active listening that I have now re-named Authentic Guidance, as book #5, a Spiritual ONENESS realization came to me that when we really listen well to another, that the other is our God Given Mirror to help intimately reveal our own hidden issues. So, instead of merely the motive of helping another figure out their own suffering realities, new animating motives come when we really intimate with more delight-filled responses about what comes from both, the self discloser and the listener, bonding within the Unity that God set up for us to experience together.
2 PINE LOG Jan 2007
My writing attempt after a break up of a very loving relationship to process the pain of childhood abuse that comes up after a big change or loss. All of these writings were posted on the Conversations with God site that I was on for about a year. The title was my son’s idea of a sort of journal or “Log”, but also can mean to us a sort of dead Pine coming alive again.
3 TOMPINETREE Feb 2007
My break away onto my own blog that begins to really go in depth about my ONENESS healing to coincide with weekly therapy and many recovery meetings.
4 FORGIVENESS Oct 2007
This book coincides with teaching advanced forgiveness on internet radio with ACIM in mind and Gary Renard’s “The Disappearance of the Universe”. My main focus began to actually stop merely talking about forgiveness and break away from ACIM discussions ‘about’ forgiveness.
5 Authentic Guidance Feb 2008
Forgiveness prayers helped me surrender to the benevolence of everything appearing in my life is really my authentic guidance from God to use for help to know what to forgive next in my old mind to renew my mind with Delight. No more wondering if I am doing what I am supposed to do to serve, and no more wondering if God wants me to make any changes.
6 Ascension Jun 2008
Making atonement by deepening compassion, kindness, and gentleness by continuing to forgive with renewed devotion to commit to advanced forgiveness at least the next 20 life times (:
7 Free Father Fun Oct 2008
My new name for God, and my writing from guidance learning that anything, too serious is not of God and Love, and even any hint of humor indicates what I can trust comes from getting closer to Spirit
8 Love Lyrics Glistening Feb 2009
Poetic prose mixed with poetry and lighter experiences while coinciding with a published book “ONENESS”
9 ONENESS Feb 2009
The first in a trilogy from ONENESS to NURTURING ONENESS to NURTURING. One story of replacing an old tired mind of unconscious guilt from feral child beginnings with a new mind of humility and Love through advanced forgiveness with Holy Spirit. Rhythmic prose and poetry capture an experiential sense of childhood traumas and beautiful inner experiences toward ONENESS balanced in two seeming opposites. This work is inspiration to “Sweep our hearts with a Divine broom” by embracing our shadows and fears, that we continually project out onto others and forgive it in “them” as we heal separation and experience bonding within our eternal ONENESS.
10 NURTURING ONENESS Jun 2009
After discovering ONENESS and experiencing the essence of ONENESS this second in the trilogy intimates, OK, now how do we nurture ONENESS?
11 NURTURING Nov 2009
Surprise in this 3rd of the trilogy experiences that nurturing only comes from within and, every idea of Love in our 3rd Dimension is an illusion of fear, and guilt and, hardly Love or any real nurturing compared to the benevolence and magnanimity inside.
12 FREE FLOWING May 2010
Universal love supersedes even unconditional love of the 3rd Dimension, and immortal love from the continual nurturing inside in the INNER REALM of Heaven is this exploration of love-flowing and never measuring still, just as the Galactic Halo eternal energy comprises the creative intelligence of the light packet matrix inclusive of all Dimensions.
13 MIRACLES of Enlightening Mist within Living Waters Loving Universe of PEACE Nov 2010
Guided writing, ‘as if’ all of my writing, already isn’t, but this is a concentration of feeling, and sensory descriptions of the effervescence and fascinating Wonder of the golden horizon and living Mosaic inside the Pineal Gland Portal to all other simultaneous Dimensions
14 INNER REALM May 2011
Letting go of all outside unreal perceptions for the sake of full concentration on what is only eternal and real inside within meditation experiences, as if all outer life remains continually a mere part of Inner Realm with no more illusion of any separation. This captures the process of total eclipse of Earth and Heaven ONENESS perceptions.
15 QUICKENING ELATION Aug 2011
Ascension energies quickening experiences, so in harmony, that no more down time is required. PAO videos continually become sign posts the day after all my writing so synchronicity becomes continually confirmed.
16 COALESCING EFFULGENCE NOV 2011
My most recent book about “Nothing” visible in an attempt to leave the 3rd dimensional hold on my commitment to even still be here in the 3rd Dimension. This book is just finished today 020112, and as I begin my current book today “Self Mastery”, this is my first rest to even write down the progression of all my books in one place.
17 Self Mastery Feb 2012
The experiences from meditation and forgiveness continuing that describe a focus on personal self awareness and acceptance of these experiences to work to not let 3rd dimensional life contaminate the higher energy frequencies of the 5th Dimension. Unlike affirmation type pretending higher vibration of Ascension, these writings will help to use my old experiences for the continual service for others to inspire with compassion and even better listening combined with more intuitive and efficient down to Earth just being myself enlightening inspiration.
18 SOVEREIGNTY WITHIN COLLECTIVE COMPASSION 2012
With Ascension 2012 approaching us all, new understandings about how our lower 3 Dimensional physical reality limits our 2 strand DNA and 7 chakras as the essence of concrete seeming reality holds us buying into that “Even that we think we are here speaks to our fear and guilt of separation”. Fully Conscious beings are helping us to wake up our so called “Junk DNA, enhance 6 additional chakras for those willing to become more positive, so in the up and coming Golden Age, we will enjoy new freedom, truer Sovereignty, and joyful prosperity and health that will become our innate “Sovereignty within Collective Compassion” instead of fear and guilt that comes with the lack luster justice, so absent from any current Mercy, from within our present lower vibration frequency normalcy bias.
19 MYSTIC ASCENSION 2012 MONK 2012
Transformative Spirituality within Ascension to ethereal Dimensions ~~~~~ Ascension is very personal ~~~~~ Forgiveness enhances compassion ~~~~~ Physicality is lower 3 Dimensional illusion of fear and guilt of separation ~~~~~ Joy and Harmony come from Ascending into coalescing effulgence by activating the light within the love of all life so when we, so know the energy that we are the very cells, themselves come alive with light ~~~~~ HEART FRIENDS is a monastic brotherhood in the ethereal that welcomes us within through the Pineal Portal ~~~~~ GENTLE KIND COMPASSION remains the velcro mirroring God’s will and intimates animating Delight-filled energy flowing within Love’s continual HALO
20 FULLY CONSCIOUS BEINGS Aug 4, 2012
We are all headed for Ascension to become Fully Conscious Beings with 13 Kundalini Chakras, not just 7, and 12 strand DNA, not just 2. We will become assisted by other Fully Conscious Beings off World, and Agarthans from inner Earth working closely with Earth Allies already here among us to help coordinate the clearing of the Dark Cabal minions. To open up to their higher vibration energy, we face our fear and guilt contaminants, ask for help to have our awarenesses removed by these Christ consciousness beings, and learn to live loved again by serving from light and love restored from within. Even asking for help now invokes Fully Conscious Beings closer to our own emerging energy, and even just writing about this already invited these changes.
21 FREE SPIRIT Oct 28, 2012
“The beauty of my Spirit is who I want to be” is a line from a 1992 poem called “My Eyes Paint a Picture of Me”, so this latest effort is to express from my heart all authentic beauty and truth understandings about freeing Spirit, delight, and Sovereignty within collective compassion. Since a continual subtext emerges here celebrating in service as a Galactic Universal Love citizen, less focus remains on physicality, as increasing focus emerges within creative processes for joy and harmony. All perceptions become free as Spirit is free to express itself from any perspective, as transfiguration replaces Duality in favor of healing ONENESS reverie.
22 SURRENDERING WONDER Jan 18, 2013
All my writing until today has been from meditation experiences for my own personal mind training from all ego lessons still reverberating around in my tired mind in order to let go and welcome my new mind of delight. This is my first writing that is completely “Off Limits” to other possible readers, except a few friends, so that I no longer am concerned with any regular seeming bullshit from our normalcy biases and social norms that have been a real killer for any true freeing Spirit. I am releasing all, and deepening my devotion to our Creator energy flow of Divine Love, gentle kind compassion, Sovereignty freedom and abundance, and animating Light Love and Life infinite energy possibilities.
23 GENTLE KIND COMPASSION 032813
Almost breathless and in awe, I have been caught unaware of a new level of kindness that has me surrendering to deeper and gentler kindness and compassion. Even though I only began writing 7 years ago, and even though I treasure my writing as an expression of gratitude for Spirit, and God inspirations instead of ego, and money, I am also stopping sharing on the internet and withdrawing into even more seclusion as an act of Love, instead of merely help---ing. “Opening Heart Eye”, the first article, expresses in more detail how I am embarrassed of myself to, still want to fight against authority, that only increases their divisive lower frequency vibration energy. This new inquiry is meant to enhance my renewing gentle, kind, compassion as I explore what comes from even, more letting go of our shared fear, and guilt of separation illusion.
24 CONSCIENCE July 4th, 2013
One surprising expression came right out of me when I was public speaking from my heart about personal experience: “Trusting another who doesn’t listen well when wanting to really be vulnerable is the same as dropping a heavy anvil on your own foot”. Pretending to be connected to Conscience without welcoming Spirit ONENESS of forgiveness into our heart first, makes us the swelled broken foot scream/talking instead of walking the walk of congruence from innocently doing what we say, and saying honestly what we do. Not only can nothing happen to one of us without it happening, at least in subtle ways, in everyone in the collective normalcy bias, not one of us can separate ourselves in consciousness without the total support of our Collective ONENESS in the Spirit of Love.
25 HOLY SPIRIT 092113
“Holy Spirit” comes from wanting to trace my forgiveness steps from all my 24 books, and continuing until sincere inclusive compassion. This selection includes the worst mother-abuse realizations forgiven, that led up to Holy Spirit showing me, that the whole World of Duality suffers similar abuse as mine, that I had previously imagined made me feel so very unique. Holy Spirit is that spark of Immortal Love within everyone, all together, coming into invisible ONENESS energy to forgive others that helps us switch our allegiance from creation to our Creator, Spirit Conscience.
26 FREEING CELLULAR NEUTRINOS 092213
New energy freeing from inside, needs this space from recently facing the most preposterous evil that comes with enlightening Immortal Love, animating life on the edge of all creation within delight. This timeless reverie is becoming my most recent creation about nothing, nothing but ethereal Wonder within effortless Light, that is… This collection is, all about every thing-less thing in between time, in between all the parts of the atom, and everything else that has dominated our dream. Hints of Delight become mixed within rain softening whispers freeing cellular neutrinos.
27 HEAVENLY FAVOR 122513
I am so grateful for privacy enough to enjoy Sovereignty to interconnect with Divine guidance through Holy Spirit, and today I am willing to become silent with others to receive the final step of “Mystic” to actually receive what only can come from giving other’s their own private and Sovereign experience with Divine guidance through Holy Spirit. I remember high-end role model Mystics, even with many followers, go silent with followers, except to continually encourage them to meditate for their own Divine guidance through Holy Spirit. So, with, or without followers; and with, or without high-end status, I begin another more Sovereign leg of my many faceted journey as a devotee, meek-to-Spirit Mystic.
28 ONE AKASHIC KARMA 030214
I seem to be learning as I write, but it is occurring to me that most may still hold onto retaining a very individual Akashic record, and Karma perception, that only has to do with their own personal need for Atoning life time after life time. This treatise is meant to come from deeper compassion and even more inclusive humility to imagine instead, that we all come here as Earth angels to help play our chosen part to work on the ONENESS collective Conscience of “One Akashic Karma”. Here an additional inspiration for Peace of Love comes to, also introduce our One motherless/fatherless gender-free Inner Child Spirit Conscience replaces most of our imagining our little girl or little boy Inner Child, still with fear that Spirit doesn’t intimate, still holding onto the Physical, even with a little pinky.
29 SPIRIT FAVOR 050414
“Spirit Favor” comes from many other tantalizing nuances, but none seem as simple, agenda free, or innocent, so I merely include others within the text, like “Simple Gender Free Spirit Favor”, “Simple Free Innocence”, “Chastity’s Free Simplicity” or “Simple’s not Easy”. Deeper prayer and contemplation reveals many new ideas about how to stay on the Spirit Light-beam, and this new effort comes with clarity to let go of ‘body focus’ in favor of the Delight from forgiving ‘It’ all toward any realer Inner-child happiness.
30 IMMORTAL LOVE REALITY 072314
A new idea is coming from Healing ONENESS Grace inside to begin to more easily apply lessons of compassion to everything as, really everything, calling the ethereal ‘real’ and calling our temporary human reality ‘ethereal’ instead. “Spirit Favor”, is teaching me that, not only does Holy Spirit energy include all there is, in Spirit, but now each part of, even creation, includes all there is too. As I was writing along recently this idea jumped right out at me, and best expresses my new idea with, even more inclusive compassion than ever before:
“Is it a boy, or is it a girl; am I a man, or am I a woman, and what is a mortal pirate’s buried treasure, but Our Immortal Love Reality, lost at sea on a huge ole divisive gender-bender?”
31 UNIFYING SOVEREIGN MERCY 101014
At the core of Zero Point free energy of each individual’s Pineal Portal to Immortal Love Reality, abides all inclusive free Unifying Sovereign Mercy, that dwells within every possible variation of creation. The outer Holographic Universe remains a mere reflection of our collective individual stasis counseling out each other in Duality Illusion, so collective Mercy within each carbon base engendered timeline nuclear half-life Atomic spinning stuck cellular energy transforms to crystalline invisible ONENESS Spirit Conscience, only inside our shared telepathic inclusive Inner Realm of Immortal Love Reality.
Our body antennae continually aligns with our collective separating nuclear armament Centralization stasis, while our core Unifying Sovereign Mercy continually abides within Peace of Love flowing from above, down and throughout, within coherent Spirit Conscience energy, replete, timeless, inviolate, and invisible. We are a little over 7 billion; Sovereign Unifying Mercy is a little over 7 billion, so please activate Mercy to the power of a little over 7 billion, interconnecting in Joy and Harmony to our innate ONENESS Spirit Conscience infinity, within each individual core of Unifying Sovereign Mercy.
32 HAPPY HEAVENLY HARMONY 012915
Mercy is inside, not outside, where divisive Duality miming justice dominates in suffering darker adventures, away from Unifying Sovereign Mercy. Sovereignty comes with compassion given, and Peace of Love comes from the Inner Realm of healing ONENESS Mercy in Spirit favor, over divisive Karmic gender favor. So many outward signs in our collective compassion increasing in Spirit favor of Ascension Atonement enlightening are exchanging Time traumas for Love in continually increasing happiness, that voila, we can now enter inclusive Heavenly Harmony of our Inner Realm’s infinite benevolent astronomy.
33 EFFULGENCE 060415
“EFFULGENCE” comes from inspiration to express from Karmic gender reversal lifetime’s awareness after deeper forgiveness prayers, than ever enlighten compassion exponentially to, actually Unify Mercy from all, for all, whoever appear here to serve with Love in the miming mirror of family generational reflections:
Effulgence
Compassion’s desire for all Unifying Karmic gender reversal lifetimes Mercy
Coherent Spirit, replete, timeless, inviolate, and invisible
Enlightening liquefiable Love energy flux flow
Inner Child Communion with Holy Spirit
Forgiveness fountain of delight
Karmic Communion Grace
Total Humility
34 RESPONSIVE HUMILITY 080815
I am letting go of my motive to renounce the World, as an Illusory reflection of my origin causal fear references, and just as I was welcomed into the Inner Realm, I now, am willing to remain Sovereign, without using my fear as a reference to bounce off from. As I embrace new Sovereign Coherence, I accept my Karmic family Parent/Child Triangulation, as the Universal female sexual form demon imbedded in our Goliath social norm to worship Mothers outsourcing our own need for more responsive humility.
35 WELCOME IMMORTAL LOVE 101815
“Welcome Immortal Love” clearly states my new intention to choose Love, over sex anytime, and every gender role-reversal time I need that last ‘oomph’ to make my decision to favor Immortality, over Karmic Mortal slavery. Sexual Karma is a physical habit, and what we do to our children, just improves more need for physical punishment, to appease our guilt of separation role-reversal sexual Karmic increase. Holy Spirit Nurturing is helping me to see choosing Immortal Love, over Mortal Sex heals mind control fear-sex drive, over my lost heart interconnection to Coherent Spirit, replete, timeless, inviolate, and invisible.
36 *KARMIC DELIGHT* 122715
Karma is an Atonement Gift to help us Ascend, when we experience Gratification in Delight from seeing how, all our lifetime timelines are fitting together, so nicely. Continual forgiveness with Holy Spirit doing the forgiveness miracles for us, helps us see through the veil of fear, so when I am forgiving my Mother, for example, I am forgiving myself before, as that same Mother-role I brought with me, and also as my present lifetime Mother ONENESS timeline. Without Holy Spirit forgiveness nurturing, Karma seems like punishment, until we can see others are not just our mirrors attract each other, but are our saviors that we actually co-create with our Karmic fear, and shame levels, so we can let go of Karma, altogether in Delightful gratification.
37 VISIONS 022816
Up until now I had been convinced, that I was pregnant with poesy metaphors, as if my rhyming intuitive insights were mere helpful images to offer as much clarity as I can. When I realized that our Earth languages are an integral part of our Limiting Collective censuring Consciousness I knew my rebellion to break through our Spiritual glass ceiling may need a lot of metaphors to express what otherwise would never get communicated. “Visions” is about my acceptance of many daily visions, and I need to call them that, and not diminish my God-given Intuitive gifts any more.
38 RELATIVE FREE 060816
Other beautiful minds suggest, that until we can associate new Matrix-information, with some way to make newness related to what we already accept, so this book is my exploring how to see, more like a seer, without having to come from such fear motives to experience the Joy of learning like a child can, and does, so freely for a little while, until we program them with mind-control. This is my valiant effort to let go of role-relative controls, and not require any perspective, to slow down my entry into Ascension Delight.
39 KIND 080516
“Kind” all by itself deserves to stand alone, because at the essence of our unkind paradigm, all Ascension is really about is to become kind, instead of how we approach each other as if we are arch enemies. It’s fun o say my Mother was a Red Ass Orangutan, right out loud in front of God and everyone, and that she was no different than any of us that constantly tell ourselves we are Kind, and we know what Love is, and we know what Love isn’t, as if we, just need a few adjustments. If our social norms are kind, I would hate to imagine what would scare us now, after almost destroying a whole Planet with’Kindness” bullshit-reverse perceptions?
40 BOOM BOOM BANG-LESS 103016
After decades of trying, all too carefully to express how gender bigotry runs this Hate-dump, this book applies enough starling humor so the flying censures won’t even try to argue with my clearer anti gravity perspective of how gender-hate seems our most popular denial Elephant in our Earthling shit-slinging Gravity-living rooms. I can see how I am approaching new awareness about the Big Bang theory, where if we call each gender a BOOM on the Earthquake richter scale, and hint at stopping abused survival Mother-worship poverty, then maybe Bang-less is a way for two BOOM BOOMS to get over themselves, and settle down in Ascension meditation stillness instead.
41 AMAZING GRACE 122316
Dec 2013 was three years ago, and I am not just waiting 4 more long years for Ascension to happen, but Dec 2012, was 21 books ago too, so this new book is hopefully my last book on this list, so once enough want to hear about Love, I will be free from evil Satanists so that nothing will be in my way to help those that want Love-help, finally. I Love Listened every John Smallman ‘Jesus’, and ‘Saul’ posts for three years before, and I posted like crazy on Thrive for four years, but only 3 months on Intel without censure translates to me, that we are ready, willing and able to Love together, instead of fearing each other, no matter what new idea comes down Ascension pike.