An anonymous follower left this comment on my "Josh" post:
"please stop crying in front of the kids...I'm sorry but you need to be stronger in front of them. This is such an exciting time for the entire family. No one has died, no one is sick....you have soooooo much to look forward to."
I appreciate the concern for kids, I do. However, I disagree. I think it's healthy for my boys to see me miss their Daddy & cry. It's not like I'm crying all the time, or have become emotionally unavailable to them. In addition to seeing me sad, they also see me excited, like yesterday when we received a package from him full of "Alaska" gear for us. They see me happy when we talk about the "Alaska House" (as they call it) being done and being "together as a family" again. They had seen me cry before Josh left, and this is no different. Mommy has feelings, and my boys know that.
I recommend checking out my other blog, particularly this post, if you are worried I have lost perspective. I assure you that I have not. There are good days & bad days. There are days when I miss Josh so much I ache for his arms around me, and other days where I am just anxious to get there & join him on this journey. The boys are adjusting quite well to such a huge change, and I promise, I have lots of people close to me watching for signs of distress, anxiety, depression or any other mental health issues that could arise from a life change such as this. I've got those boys as my top priority, which is why I feel it is important to feel my feelings as they come and not let them bottle up & overtake me.
(And if I can toot my own horn- I do have a bachelors degree in psychology with a minor in human development- so don't worry too much about those kids- I have some idea what I'm doing!)