Change

The evening was warm and because of distant fire-works the dog stayed behind as I went for my last walk of the day. He wouldn't budge. I tried to get him to come along but he has such a fear of that unknown sound that he will not leave the house. So I went alone.
My mind was racing as I walked. I thought about the wedding coming up and went over what was left to do. I felt a tinge of sadness thinking of how my kids have grown and left the nest.

 How did this happen so fast? I wondered what is next in life. I thought about someone who I consider a friend who is going through a hard time today and will for awhile. Her life turned upside-down. I know that change can be so exhilarating and yet it can be so frightening. I want her to be ok and happy again. I want her to know I care. I want her to know that while she walks down this road with her head held high, nothing will surprise her more than her own strength.

On a warm night like tonight the air is thick with the scent of lilacs everywhere. I think heaven might smell like this. I came across many cats running about on the sidewalks and streets. Are they owned by anyone or are they looking for food at night when it is safe to roam? I stopped to pet one and she was very friendly and rolled on the sidewalk. This one was chubby and obviously well looked after. Another, not so much. He walked past me and never gave me a look. He was thin and scruffy. I only wish I had had some food with me. I think I'll keep an eye out for him next time and bring him something to eat.

Our porch light was on when I returned and Sierra sat by the bench.

She likes to people watch and smell the lilacs, too. Before we went in for the night, I sat with her for awhile and thought again about change.

I have lost loved ones and that changes you. I have lost 5 of my cats to illness in old age in the last 5 years. It's been hard to lose them. They meant so much to me. Change sometimes can be so hard. 


But then to lighten the post remember this silly quote....
"Some people have cats and yet go on to lead normal lives." ;-)



Hugs, Deb