Starting to miss Australia

My job searching really hasn't panned out as I expected. I'm pretty discouraged by it now and have little hope left I'll be able to get the Gulf engineering I was really hoping for. I guess now I'm at that point 98% of people get to where they have to compromise because they weren't able to realise their dream. Perhaps it'll just be a detour or perhaps I'll just be unfulfilled; living like that writer who took on teaching temporarily and ended up teaching right up till his retirement.

As much as I enjoy learning Arabic it's not really going to take me too far in a career sense. No matter how much a foreigner studies Arabic, someone who is bi-lingual in Arabic since childhood is always going to have a major advantage. And if I don't return to engineering soon that door is going to slam shut and Arabic won't be enough to fall back on. So with those things in mind, I should return to Australia while the door to engineering is still opened for me.

I think I value what I'm doing here more because of everything I've lost to come here. Had I just come here straight after high school and given up only a little, maybe then I wouldn't feel like returning to Australia is such a defeat. I know that's a dangerous character trait though. If every time I make a mistake I feel like I have to stick with it until it turns to gold then I'm going to waste a lifetime.

Now that my 12 month contract is officially over I've begun to miss Australia much more than before. I just found out the NRL (Rugby League) website has all of their games online in a non-streaming format. This is great because before I was never able to watch games on the school's internet line other than at 4am in the morning. But now it's not streaming, I can leave the game to download and watch it later without any undesirable pauses.